I'm very sleepy after having a light breakfast these few days. I don't know why, I drink a mug of nescafe every morning for breakfast, and that still makes me sleepy. I hope that I can change my daily routine after I got my stable and permanent job here. Right now, life is a bit messy.

Living in Sarawak these couple of months, it still can't make me arrange a proper schedule for daily routine. I don't know why, it becomes hard for me to wake up early in the morning each day to perform my subuh prayers. Last few months back, it was not like this. Oh, is it because of the cold weather now? In Kuching, the Subuh prayers is normally within 5.10am - 6.20am, and I woke up everyday around 6.00 and that can be considered as a bad recored because I don't like to pray late, esp Subuh, it's almost syuruk time. But it's better than not waking up at all. I wish I can wake up at 5.00am, ready for prayes and prepare all necessary things, so that by 7.00am, everything has already done (breakfast, housekeeping). During fasting month, I had a better schedule.

I hope, and I want to aim that I can wake up early everyday and manage all things better. Right now, I also do not have the mood to do housekeeping since the house renovation is still under progress. I hope and hope so much that they will finish the job earlier, as promised within 5 days, but now it's already 3 weeks! Haiyaaa.. so bad lah like this. My house is very the 'berkubang', so messed up here and there. I can't wait to clean all things out, and keep things at proper place. Sighh.. I want to make my house a better place to stay even though it is only a rented one, because before this we just can't use at all the upper floor. It was so itchy when we walk and sit around there. To sleep in rooms, owh it was just a dream! We could wake up in the next morning while scratching our skins. Now it is fixed., I hope it would not be itchy anymore.

But I don't like the so-called Indian colours chosen by the contractor and owner. We (hubby and I) have no choice at all because this is not our house. We just rent it out. The upper floor is now almost like TRAFFIC LIGHT, whereby the colour combinations are DARK GREEN and STRIKING YELLOW. I bet if they mix another RED colour, absolutely the rooms and resting hall will look like a traffic light corner. Actually we have chosen the pastel colours, which look smooth and light and peaceful.. but the contractor said there was no stock of our chosen colours so he pick up owner's choice. Lucky it was GREEN + YELLOW not GREEN + PINK. PINK is owner's choice also, he wanted to combine the  walls  colours.

Hahaha.. sungguh ganas sekali tajuk aku kali ini. Ianya cuma untuk mengingatkan anda semua, jikalau ada yang tengah buat search di mana2 search engine tentang nama Tan Sao Than ini maka aku ingin memberikan sedikit maklumat tentang lelaki jahannam yang maklumatnya tertera spt di bawah ini:

Hari ni aku interview kat satu company private and established kat Sarawak ni. Tak payahlah aku bgtau nama ape kat sini, takut2 ada pulak orang dari company tersebut terbaca entry aku... Hahaha, memandangkan result interview pun belum keluar, jadi baik aku tak tulis nama company itu. Tapi jawatan itu adalah SYSTEM ADMINISTRATOR.

Maknanya tak berapa sesuai dengan pengalaman dan benda yg aku pernah belajar, tapi aku kan budak baik. Ape2 sahaja tentang teknologi ni, I am ready and willing to learn. Kalau ayat best and bodek tu lebih kurang mcm ini: "I have passion towards learning new ICT technologies and languages.." Hahah, mcm bagus je, tp itulah yg aku jawab pada 3 org interviewers itu. 2 adalah CINA and sorang tuh melayu (or melanau? bidayuh?? aku tak sure..)

Kerja system admin ini mencabar bagi wanita yg spt sudah berkahwin dan bakal dapat anak bila2 masa. Ini kerana ia memerlukan pengorbanan masa ketika waktu malam/pagi/weekend sekiranya berlaku apa2 masalah teknikal di plant. Uh.. plant? Adakah betul perkataan aku itu? Betullah tuh kot, betapa teruk vocab aku.. .

Soalan2 nyer adalah simple sahaja. Aku suka kerana aku tak perlu nak goreng soalan CRITICAL THINKING. Entahlah, aku mmg lemah dalam menggoreng sbb aku sudah lama tak membuat karangan English (what an excuse...!!). Jadi skill aku semakin lemah, kecuali lah masa PMR & SPM dulu slalu dpt A1 + GCE O level pun dapat grade best jugaklah wpun takleh lawan Mat Salleh, sbb nya time tu aku terlalu minat karangan English, aku suka buat karangan yg melampau2 muka surat, biar teacher aku penat marking dan aku puas kerana dapat markah tinggi kerana aku byk points utk elaborate dan very little/no grammatical errors at all. Tp itu dululah, masa skolah, competition nya lain. Skrg ni dah tak skolah, grammar aku pun dah terabur balik. How I wish to go back to school.

Di dalam satu interview, Aku pun tak suka menggoreng perkara mengarut dan over-bragging serta exaggerate, semuanya nanti menjadi satu PENIPUAN kalau aku tak mampu mencapai apa yang aku rekakan.. Aku pernah baca blog seorang manager ni, dia quote which goes like "You can bluff for nonsense in your resume but make sure you know properly how to explain and elaborate it".

Jadi aku hanya prepare simple & light CRITICAL THINKING questions dan jawapan2 simple yg tak over lah. (eh.. dah nama critical, ada lagi ke simple and light?.. ahaha). Aku byk fokus kpd PROBLEM SOLVING, DESIGN, ANALYTICAL SKILLS, LOGIC and etc berdasarkan pengalaman aku. So far, semua boleh jawab dgn ok, cuma bidang yg aku ceburi skrg adalah sedikit berbeza dari kerja ni. If I get this job, that means I have to put extra effort on it, and have to sacrifice my time if there is any technical breakdown. If I don't, then it's also fine. Maybe ALLAH dah tuliskan rezeki aku di tempat lain yg lebih baik, Insya Allah.

Antara soalan2nya ialah:
1) What is your previous salary?
[gaji aku dulu murah aje sbb company kedekut tahap gaban]

2) What kind of working hours do you expect for this kind of job?
[mestilah tak teratur, depends pada situation, kalau ada breakdown maybe kena stay sampai boleh settle. Kalau tgh malam tuh ada problem pun kena pergi. It's unpredictable. Maybe pagi ni takde kerja, dok rilex stakat monitor n maintain saje, tapi malam ni kalau down ke crashed ke kenalah settle down.. Yg semestinya tak fix pada regular working hour pun..]

3) If you have any kids soon, and then suddenly there is a problem occurs in this building, let's say maybe at 3.00am, are you willing to come? If yes, who's gonna take care of your kids?
[adei, kau suka nak mendera aku je. Aku goreng je. Aku sanggup, dah kerja aku, tgjwb aku kena setel. Anak aku tinggal kat laki la.. suh dia jaga..]

4) You also need to come on weekend or stay until late night. Will you do that?
[sure. it's normal, that's the technician life. Unpredictable working hour.. :P]

5) Based on your experience and knowledge, you are not very suitable for the post. Maybe you need training. What do you think?
[dlm hati aku: dah tau x suitable nape ko shortlist jugak? ahaha.. takpe2. Mmg saya kurang sesuai, tapi benda technical ni kalo rajin buat rujukan, tanya orang, boleh jugak lah buat. Ikut ajelah guideline. Pastu kalau company nak kasi training, lagi bagus sbb tambah lg experience & knowledge, as long as aku mmg minat nak belajar benda baru, so why not.. Benda ni challenging, it's a new thing to me. It's fun too to learn something new.. ahahaha]

6) Do you apply for any other jobs?
[Starting to, with reasons lah nape aku baru start cari.. cerita sket background yg penting. ]

dan byk lg soalan lain. semua tu dijawab dlm English la. Aku saje tulis melayu sbb malas nak karang. Lgpun English aku mundane giler, malu aje kalo orang baca. Kan tak pepasal kena kutuk. Aku rasa kerja ni sesuai utk Abg ZD lah, kwn opis lama. Kalau dia dok Sarawak, aku dah rekemen. Dia layak banding dgn aku.

Actually interview ni dijadualkan kul 10.30. Aku smpi dlm kul 10, dah ramai giler beratur. Aku tak pernah lg join interview mcm ni, biasa cam sempoi aje, sorang dua je dtg. Ni mcm competition sengit jugak. Aku submit borang sumer, aku dlm org yg ke4 last kot. Yg lain semua CINA laki n pompuan. Melayu ada dlm 3 org je tmasuk aku. Jakun gak la, aku nak berborak pun jadi tak confident, takut tgk semua orang. Hahaha.. saiko betul. Diorang speaking semua mcm bagus la. Tapi aku rasa, semua orang di-interview less than 10mins aje. Ade yg masuk 2mins terus blah keluar.. Apekahhh??? Aku pun jadi takut. Tapi nasib baik aku ni lama jugak bersoal jawab ngan diorang. Time aku masuk tuh dah dkt kul 12, lunch hour. Muka sengsorang penemuduga tuh pun mcm dah monyok and nak muntah je. Jadi aku pun behave skit la supaya diorang tak termuntah terus sbb dah bosan tgk muka candidates dari pagi lagi. Ape yg best, last skali aku tanya diorang..

Me:    May I ask you a question?
They: Yes, you may.
Me:    When do u expect to make your decision about this position?
They: Within 2 months.
Me:    Oh, Thank you very much.

Dlm hati aku cakap baik aku apply kerja lain dulu ni. Lama giler nak tunggu. Btw aku ada lagi next interview yg aku rasa kerja nya MACAM la tak berat sgt. Bukan programming sgt. Dia cam assist and support, tp company tu pun mmg nak pakai programmer (kat kl la) cuma yg aku apply ni je kat swk and sabah yg ada opening. So I hope later diorang akan bukak opening utk programmer di Sbh/Swk jugak.

Sekarang ni makin byk skit iklan utk jawatan dlm bidang IT. Biasa nak jumpa 1 post dlm paper yg ada kena mengena dlm IT pun susah dlm masa sebulan. Alhamdulillah skrg ada gak iklan dlm 2-3 hari skali. Jadi bolehlah aku apply slow2..Insya Allah.. Ada rezeki di mana2. Kena byk doa, tawakkal and byk bersabar. Allah itu MAHA ADIL. Dia takkan lupakan kita semua..