Yes, you have seen that happens anywhere. In your colleges, universities and offices. And even in political issues. It does happen aound you, a lot. Do you mind about it?

I'm giving a few examples. Let's say in college, someone, I name her as Zainab wishes to stay in hostel even though her house is near to the college, let's say about 15 minutes driving. Zainab has an uncle, Salam, who works as a hostel warden in that college. Rooms there are already full, and only 1 room left, which is allocated for student whose hometown is far away from the college. Zainab is asking Salam's power so that she can stay in the hostel, in one of the reserved rooms. And now, she can stay there with her uncle's power as a warden. But actually, there are more students out there who are more entitled to stay in hostel. Ok, that's a light case actually. We don't really mind but maybe someone does mind if she/he in the situation of needing a room in that hostel.

Other reality example is in my previous office. That company's specialization is kind of Technology and Service Provider. What do you expect? We need more programmers and web designers, and some call centre staff, a few financial personnel, and 1-2 admin. But things are going imbalance. When I work there, there were 2-3 of us who could really do programming. I don't say others can't do programming. Of course they can, but what I mean, supposedly more programmers are hired to focus on core businesses. Now I left, and I know my close partner is struggling hard for codings. Pity her. We are paid less than what we deliver. My previous salary was very less than a diploma holder, what a stingy company. At first there was only 1 admin, then the boss hired another admin. And for the call centre staff, at first there are only a few, now there are enough to entertain customers' complaints. I pity that the programmers are still not enough. It is very imbalance.

What came to my shock after working there few weeks, that actually the 2nd admin is the COO sister in law, and also chief of call center staff is also his in law! 2 sisters in law are dragged into the office to be employed. No, I don't mind at all, but I mind when the salary is also imbalance. What is his excuse to put a diploma holder's salary more than a degree programmer? That's so chronic, chronic abuse of power! Entertaining calls are not a brain-crashing job! At first, she did not do her task very well. Like I needed to do her job too, better pay me double. Every [roblem was then passed to me to give solution. I already developed the call center system, which they can do by themselves, still they were bothering me to give solution. Yes, hire more people like this and keep them working with their lazy dumb ass in your office. Waste your company money, waste cost, lost revenue.

During my tertiary study, I knew this one girl. Rich girl. Oh, she is not rich but her father is. He gave her lots of money as allowance. More than my current salary, or I can say at least 4 times  than my monthly allowance from my sponsor. I don't mind how she spent her money, that's not my business. But I'm kind of allergic when she mention the prices and brands of things she bought. I can accept brands, but prices seem like too BRAGGING. Like she wanted to compare with her other shopaholic friends. Go go girl, it's your business and I've no right to complain. Her other shopaholic friends are into designers and brands too, but I like when they are not braggging bout prices at all.

Eh, this is far beyond my topic. I  just wanted to say that this girl's father is someone who plays role in political matters in Malaysia. So he has got power, money and easy-persuaded cronies. Guess what? I just can't accept when during final examination, her father came and met Mr President (his friend too la..), I did not know what they discussed, I don't want to make speculation. But right after that when everyone was struggling for few last papers for final exam, this girl could go home. She could take supplementary exams later with grading! OMG! I don't think that so unfair. I did not think that she had serious problem to settle. She was healthy. But I think I knew why her father asked for exception from final exam. I knew.. I knew.. That was very unfair. She used her father's power to escape from finals!

But the other friend of mine, I name her Alia, when his father passed away during her final papers were still going, she couldn't even ask for excuse to escape finals and take supplementary. She had to go for supplement without grading, which could only be as 'best' as C+ or 'C'. or worst is 'FAIL'. See the difference. I bet that if Alia's father is also SOMEONE, surely she can get grading. This is unfair. 'SOMEONE' always conquers everything.. Name it, you got anything as long as you have your cronies around you to support. May Allah show you the fair path.

That's a little story. I have more.  About using a father's power to get scholarship. I also knew this girl during college. Her father is (still now) also 'someone'. Her SPM result was not even eligible to be awarded a scholarship. Her father arranged her a PSD scholarship too. She did not do well in college, not maintaining CGPA as in agreement. Now she graduated with 3rd Class if i'm not mistaken. Best of all, she did not need to work under governement at all, while others need to follow agreements (depends on the agreements lah..). It's easy.. easy to do anything even your results are like chicken shit, you got government money even you are wealthy enough to support yourself, because yor father arranged it. Just think, how many students out there that are  more eligible and in a very desperate need of educational sponsor? And now governement has to ignore them just to save and align their budget to other 'wealthy and not eligible' student? Berkat ke kalau belajar dengan duit spt ini? Wallahu'alam.. Allah knows.

That's all for today. I don't like abuse of power. But people with power, you have your choice to be fair. Just remember, many people out there is still in needy situation than you are. Just think properly about it.

Seorang bayi bersiap-siap untuk dilahirkan ke dunia. Dia berkata pada dirinya sendiri: "Para Malaikat mengatakan bahawa esok aku akan dikirimkan ke dunia, tetapi bagaimana aku boleh hidup di sana? Aku begitu kecil dan lemah?"

Tiba-tiba terdengar suatu suara : "Jangan bimbang, Aku telah memilih seorang Bidadari untuk Mu. Dia akan menjaga dan mengasihi kamu di sana."

Bagaimanapun bayi ini berasa bimbang dan takut untuk menghadapi dunia yang amat asing baginya.

"Di sini - syurga - apa yang aku lakukan hanyalah menyanyi dan ketawa sepanjang hari. Ini sudah cukup ba! gi aku untuk berasa bahagia," kata bayi itu dalam nada yang cukup sedih.

"Jangan kamu bimbang, Bidadari Mu akan menyanyi, sentiasa tersenyum dan menjaga Mu sepanjang masa. Dan kamu akan merasakan kehangatan cintanya.Dengan semua itu kamu akan lebih bahagia daripada di sini," terdengar sekali lagi suara tadi.

"Tapi bagaimana aku akan mengerti apa yang dibicarakan oleh Bidadari ku jika aku tidak memahami bahasanya?" tanya bayi itu separuh merintih.

"Bidadari Mu akan berbicara kepada Mu menggunakan bahasa lembut yang paling indah pernah kamu dengar. Dan dengan penuh kesabaran dan perhatian, dia akan mengajarkan kamu cara berbicara," berkata suara itu lagi.

Bayi itu masih tidak puas hati, dia terus juga bertanya: "Aku mendengar bahawa di dunia banyak orang jahat. Siapa yang akan melindungi aku?"

"Bidadari Mu akan memberikan perlindungan dengan sep! enuh jiwa raganya dan akan bercerita kepada Mu dan akan mengajar 'Ilmu yang ada, Padanya kamu adalah segala-galanya, " balas suara itu.

"Tetapi aku pasti akan berasa sedih kerana meninggalkan tempat yang begitu indah," rintih bayi itu lagi.

Di saat itu suasana menjadi begitu tenang dan perlahan-lahan bayi itu bertanya lagi : "Jika aku harus pergi sekarang, bolehkah diberitahu siapakah Bidadari itu?

"Kamu akan memanggil Bidadari itu..... IBU !"

Ingatlah !... Curahkan sepenuh kasih-sayang kepada ibu Mu, berdoa'lah untuknya dan cintailah dia sepanjang hayat.

IBU..... adalah Bidadari di rumah Mu.....!!

NOTA: Sungguh besar Jasa Ibu, ibarat kata kalau lah kita mendukung Ibu kita sambil berjalan kaki dari Perlis sampai ke Singapura, masih lagi belum terbalas Jasa Ibu tersebut.... ...!!

KASIH NYA IBU MEMBAWA KE SYURGA
KASI! H NYA AYAH BERKORBAN NYAWA
KASIH NYA SAUDARA ISLAM SEPANJANG MASA
KASIH NYA KEKASIH BELUM TENTU KAN BERSAMA..... ..!!

Excited to read the above title? Well, no... not yet.. I'm not yet pregnant up to this moment. Nothing is detected. We just wait within 4th - 9th next month, what is the result. We are still trying on it..

I ask a few of my friends, who got married around the date I got married too. They already have positive results and now waiting to become happy parents. I wish to congratulate them for the good pregnancy news, and wish they will have cute and intelligent babies... Congrats in advance for soon-to-be parents!

1) Rizal, married on May 2006, now is going to be a father in March next year.
2) Nikru, married a few days before me, is now under her 21st weeks of pregnancy.
3) Sitt, married in August 2006 is now 2 months pregnant.
4) Ayu, my ex-officemate who married long before me, now is so 'sarat' already. Congrats to you, Ayu!!! Be a nice mum ok..? Hehe.

And people keep on asking me, when I'm gonna get pregnant? Hehe.. we are working our best for that. Actually after our wedding, we stay separately almost 2 months because I was working in KL, and hubby is working in Sarawak.. So that is one of the reason why we can't make baby or even babies earlier.

Second thing is, yes, we were still planning on the first few months after I moved to Kuching, because we want to spend time together first, so that we could cover the time when we couldn't meet each other for 2 months . We practice natural birth control.

Somehow, hubby and I plan so that within end of this year or starting of the next year, I can get pregnant. Right now we are working on it.. There are a few reasons, if it is hard for me to get positive results within these few months, since there is some .. erm.. I would not say PROBLEM but it's kind of things that could make 'sticking cells' become rather difficult. Well.. they are just my assumptions. Just predictions of a non-medical person, it might be right or wrong.

1) I drink nescafe every morning, or even mugs and mugs of nescafe everday, which is not very good if I want to stay fertile. What do you think? I read from internet articles that caffeine is not very good for pregnant moms, and also for people who are planning to get pregnant and expecting pregnancy. I should avoid drinking nescafe so much, but I just couldn't. I am very addicted to it, the smell and the taste, nescafe just could not beat others. I also like tea, when there is no nescafe, I consume tea. In one day, I must drink nescafe/tea plus milk/creamer, else, I can't perfrom my 'nature calls' properly. (What an excuse! But that's true. Nescafe/Tea + Creamer/Milk will help my food digestion, else I could get constipated).I don't like MILO. My hubby can't drink tea/nescafe, his body can't accept that, only MILO taste comes right to his tongue.

2) I used to control my eating habit since 16months ago. Within first 8months, I reduced 25kgs of my weight by controlling and measuring the calorie and food I eat. My body might has less folate/acid folic because of my eating habit. As we know, folate is important for pregnant moms. Even normal people need 400mg of folate daily, and pregnant moms need at least 600mg folate daily. Now I still maintain the same eating habit, but it is not so strict as before. I can say that this month, I try to eat as normal as I can, but still under control of calorie intake. I try taking rice a little bit and eat a bit more than before. I hope it works. I hope that my folate level will increase later, I want to consume more food and vegetable that consist folate nutrient. Strawberry and green vegetables might be a good choice.

3) My mestrual cycle also has changed these few months. Usually the cycle is 29 days. Since september, it has changed to 25 days. At first I thought because of fasting month, my menstrual was not balanced. But then this month also, the same cycle applies. My current menstruation is getting closer to the previous mesntruation. I am so fertile!!!!!. Oh.. is it right? shorter menstrual cycle means fertile lah, right?

That means for previous 2 months, my ovulation calculations were not correct since I calculate for 29 days cycle. So that's the reason why until this moment, I am not yet pregnant. We missed our 'routine' during the real ovulation/fertilization time because we sometimes busy and tired, so we slept early. In fact, we always missed  the right and expected dates. Hehe, I believe, I believe that this thing has its own meaning, Allah knows the best !!

But I do believe in Allah, when HE wants to give me baby or even babies, HE will just do that. Right now I beleive that the time is not yet the right time for me. Allah knows the best for me. For any reasons, that would not make us stop TRYING. We are still trying and keep on trying until I am comfirmed to get pregnant . Don't worry, ALLAH knows that.. I will not stop praying and asking Allah's help. Pray for me too, friends!

So, if anyone is still asking, and wondering, those are the reason. You just read and you can understand. Hehe, I am lazy to explain many times, so I am sure when you read from top to toe, you will have the full set of information.

By the way, I don't know why since few weeks and days back I always dream about holding cute babies. Maybe I miss my nephews and nieces so much or maybe I miss holding babies because I used to do it everyday before I moved to Kuching. My life was full of babies before, I like playing with babies so much. Now, we only have two of us. Maybe I dream about babies because people keep on asking me, so that would distract my sleep. Or maybe it is a sign from Allah that I'm gonna get pregnant soon? I don't know, but if that's so, that would be great! I would be so thankful to Allah The Almighty.

Just last night I dreamt again I hold a baby. And in that dream too, just before that, someone (i don't recall who she was) was saying to me "CONGRATULATION for the good news.. I'm glad to know.." And then I turned my head towards the voice and say, "What..? What a good news? I'm not yet pregnant lah.." I don't know why I answered that. It was just a dream anyway..

Well, that's all an entry for today. Cheers everyone!!

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semalam masa aku nak update website aku, database error. ni dah kali ke-3 berlaku sejak aku guna mesrahosting.

1st time last year, masa aku buatkan website utk customer (sribridal.com). Baru je run tak sampai sebulan, mula2 ok. Customer tu dah update semua product dia. Tapi database ilanggg tak sampai sebulan dua.. Masa tu aku tak sempat nak mengreport kat mesrahosting yg tak mesra ni, sbb aku bz. So aku install balik backup asal yg ada dlm pc. Yg peliknya kat db Mesra tuh, db name & table ada, tapi data xleh baca. So aku drop balik semua and create db and tables baru. So run ok lah semua, cuma customer aku kena update balik. NASIB BAIK ADA BACKUP...

2nd time pulak baru aje bulan lepas ( GreatBizChannel.com ). Hari AHAD tp aku tak ingat bape hb. Dlm bulan posa. Aku ingatkan coding aku silap ke ape,sbb ada DB error. Tp aku takde update ape2 pun sejak sekian lama. Jadi aku try masuk cpanel and check db aku, masya Allah, mmg error.. Aku dah risau aaa semua data hilang. So aku nih contact semua nombor yg diberi kat web dia spt yg di bawah:


Dan hanto emel kat semua emel yg ada spt: support@mesrahosting.net, sales@mesrahosting.net dan mane2 address yg ada kaitan supaya ada org cpt2 respons. Dan jugak aku sgt kesal dan marah bila takde sorang pun ONLINE (ym) utk solve problem. MMg giler marah la sbb diorang claim kat situh kata support 24X7 Mon-Sun... tapi aku tahulah kalo kerja mcm ni, selamatttnya kalo nak on tepon time weekend tuh. Semua OFF and phone kat opis diorang pun mesin jawab : "Thank u for calling mesrahosting. We want to tell you that our office hour is from 9am to 5pm daily bla bla bla..." kepala hotak kau. Kalau dah letak 24*7 Mon - Sun tuh,apsal suh mesin jawab camtuh. Bodoh la. Baik jgn suh mesin jawab terus. Buat sakit hati aku je. Bazir masa, bazir duit. Dahle aku kat Sarawak. Nak call pun jauh. Samalah dengan semua no hp di atas tuh, hanya operator je jawab. Buat ape aku nak tinggalkan voice msg.

Budusss betul. Aku sms semua no tuh harap nanti adalah yg on tepon and betulkan balik db aku. Aku ni dahle xde backup sbb semua yg latest ada kat hosting. Aaaa.. nak nangis giler dah rasa kalo semua ilang..

Lepas tuh adalah sorang mamat ke minah reply msg aku dlm 1jam pastu. Dia ckp mintak maaf sbb problem tuh berlaku lps diorang buat maintenance semalam. Ada script error and benda tuh telah menyebabkan process maintenance telah berhenti and database tuh ilang. So diorang dah fix balik.. Then ok la.. Sejuk kejap hati aku..

Tp smlm, Ya Allahh, berlaku lagi mcm tuh. Aku sangat bengang.. Semalam pun Ahad jugak. Lagi teruk lagi dari sebelum ni. Semua hp terus OFF. Opis pun hanya mesin jawab. Aku sms lagi and emel lagi diorang. Sgt membazirkan masa dan duit aku lagi. Aku sangat sakit hati dan bengang dgn servis mesrahosting ni.Aku sms diorang bgtau masalah hosting aku kali ke-3 sejak guna, aku mintak fix and ckp tak puas hati dgn servis yg slalu bermasalah.

Kali ni adalah paling teruk aku kena sbb ada sorang staff dia ni yg agak biadap bagi aku, telah reply msg aku dgn ayat ini, dan byk pula grammatical error. Kalau tak reti ckp omputeh, baik ckp melayu. Buat malu aje jawab dengan english tunggang langgang. Siap menyumpah perkataan hell lagi:



Giler buruk ayat marketing engkau tuh, ada hell. Punyalah tak mesra langsung. Aku tak heran kau dkt kelantan ke thailand ke mongolia ke, itu urusan kau. Tapi kau takde hak nak sebut2 hell kat aku. Dahle penuh grammatical error. Aku call dia balik. Aku bgtau apa error kat hosting tu. Tp dia cam buat2 cam tak dgr aje cam line tak clear. Jadi aku end call and type sms. Tulis ape error.. aku reply:



Disebabkan marah dengan sikap beliau yg agak kasar dan byk grammar error tuh, aku telah meng-email balik semua staff mesra tuh and fwd kan gambo digital tentang msg yg kurang ajar & print screen error msg tuh. Aku siap tanya lagi si peng-reply msg tu, apakah jenis HP yg digunakannya sehingga canggih sgt sampai tak nampak error yg kuar spt dlm pc aku? kalaulah hp dia canggih mcm itu, aku pun nak beli sebijik. Dan aku tegur akan sikap tak mesra diorang layan sms aku dengan kasar, dan servis diorang yg teruk sgt sehingga 3 kali terjadi pd aku. Dan juga konon kerja 24X7 termasuk weekend, semua hampeh dan tipu belaka. Baik remove ayat yg penipu dan no hp yg tak berfungsi tuh dari list dlm website diorang.

Dalam sejam lebih lps tuh, terus website aku tak boleh masuk langsung = not found. Kalau sblm tu mmg leh nampak website tp keluar error, tp lps tuh terus ilang semua. Aku xtau nak ckp ape lg. Then aku terima lg msg reply dr mamat tu skali lg:



I'm suspected tuh maksud dia saya disyaki lah.. ape lah punya bahasa. Baik ckp melayu je senang aku nak paham.Ayat tunggang langgang abis

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